19th July 2018
Death wasn’t something I had prepared for or had even thought would happen to him.
I couldn’t face anyone, I couldn’t text my friends, I couldn’t phone people.
I had no good ‘new baby’ news to share and O’s life was still uncertain.
So, I battened down my hatches.
I shut everyone out.
Not because they couldn’t help me.
Because I couldn’t face explaining to people what had gone on.
And this was where I saw just how truly remarkable my friends and family were and continue to be.
They out did themselves.
They took my rough with the smooth.
They accepted I wasn’t ready to face facts or talk about things.
They knew I wasn’t ok and that I wasn’t going to be myself and supported the fact I was snappy or couldn’t talk to them for weeks on end.
People picked up the slack for me.
They picked me up.
These people – my family and friends – are nothing short of amazing.